A TEENAGER'S VIEW OF HEAVEN
17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was what Heaven was like. 'I wowed 'em,' he later told his father, Bruce. 'It's a killer. It's the bomb. It's the best thing I ever wrote..' It also was the last.

Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted.

The Moores framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living room. 'I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something out of it,' Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision of life after death. 'I'm happy for Brian. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him.'

Brian's Essay: The Room...
In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read 'Girls I have liked.' I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was.

This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.

A file named 'Friends' was next to one marked 'Friends I have betrayed.' The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird 'Books I Have Read,' 'Lies I Have Told,' 'Comfort I have Given,' 'Jokes I Have Laughed at .' Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: 'Things I've yelled at my brothers.' Others I couldn't laugh at: 'Things I Have Done in My Anger', 'Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents.' I never ceased to be surprised by the contents.

Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked 'TV Shows I have watched', I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented.

When I came to a file marked 'Lustful Thoughts,' I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content.

I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!' In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.

Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh.

And then I saw it.. The title bore 'People I Have Shared the Gospel With.' The handle was brighter than those around it,seemed newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.

And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.

No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own.

He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. 'No!' I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was 'No, no,' as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side.

He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, 'It is finished.' I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'-Phil. 4:13 'For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.' If you feel the same way forward it so the love of Jesus will touch their lives also My 'People I shared the gospel with' file just got bigger, how about yours?


that's an email i received. It kept playing in my mind. Keeps making me think about Heaven. Keeps causing me to ponder on how much God loves us. Keeps telling me to live life the way GOd wants it to be. Keeps reminding me of the day where we meet God. Keeps me wondering what my records would be. this story set me thinking about what i'm doing with my life. i once heard a saying that goes do not be afraid that life would end, rather be afraid it never starts. =]

thank God for this email

i've passed terms. more like scraped terms. =]
here's the final results combined with my CA1 grades.
CHinese A, Physics S, the rest are Es... really bad.
potential retain. that's besides the point.

there's more important things... =]
this song has been coming into my head...

TILL I SEE YOU

(Verse 1)
The greatest love that
Anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross
And grave to find my soul
And 'til I see You face to face
And grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

(Verse 2)
With all I am I live
To see Your Kingdom come
And in my heart I pray
You'd let Your will be done
And 'til I see You face to face
And grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

(Chorus)
I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

(Verse 3)
You are the voice
That called the universe to be
You are the whisper in my
Heart that speaks to me
And 'til I see You face to face
And grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

(BRIDGE)
You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless
Your Name

first heard this song in SAJC morning worship. it often reminds me of how to live my life on earth, just to trust God i guess. =].
i'm starting slowly, but still starting, to study...
just ran a race today -- mizuno wave run.approx 54min. previously around 5th july ran milk run.approx 47min for 9.4km that was somehow better. i dont like afternoon races actually would run faster to get out of the sun i guess. i'm becoming a little too tanned...
i finally installed MSN on my 'new' com. i've got a new hard disk and a new 1gb ram. =] really happy. my com's working lots better now.
MADAM GAVE BIRTH TO YUE LIN!!!
welcome little yuelin. see the world. have a great life.

thank God for little ones.

PHOTO post again. and it starts with me. =].
this photo post is for my jie.who is in australia now.
this was before she left the airport.

TO jiejie: study well in Australia. jupi's still growing fat. dont bother about anything. dont worry about anything. find a church... =].

TO the ppl who came down: hey, thanks lot for sending my jiejie off. she really apprieciates it.

QUIZ 1

Questions:
1)What are you most disappointed about?
not having sufficient time to do everything i wanna do.
2)Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
heaven, if they can find me that tour ticket.
3)What’s your favorite thing to do?
have fun...
4)Do you think money can buy happiness?
why waste your money buying happiness when you can self manufacture or get it for free.
5)If u can have one dream to come true, what will it be?
animals can talk
6)Do you believe you can survive without money?
if the world doesnt uses money
7)Have you ever played an instrument?
nope. i just press black and white keys.
8)If you win $1million, what will you do?
use the money.
9)What do yeu think of urself?
trying not to fail.
10)List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
a really great friend -- friendly
conversation starter -- =]
have more than skin deep beauty.
11)What makes you happy?
the stars at night.
12)What type of person you hate most?
this is a tough qn... *exam strategy skip. how about a hateful person.
13)Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
hopefully not studying anymore.
14)If you have a superpower, what will it be?
to condense knowledge into pills.
15)What do you think is the most important thing of your life?
air. or there's no life.
16)If it's the end of world, what will it be your last wish?
to save the world.
17)If you have a chance to choose, will you want to go back in time? When will it be?
yup. when i'm seven.
18)Which anime character you like most?
is avatar counted?
19)Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him/her?
i guess so, if it's necessary.
20)What's your next aim?
get my driving lisence by march 2009.

Instruction: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your own personal question, make it a total of 20 quesion, then tag 8 people in your list. List them out and end this post. Notify them in their chatter box that he/she was tagged to do these quiz.
1) Rachel
2) Fiona
3) Mark Ho
4) Pinky
5) SHane

this is a photo post.

that's my cross team. pretty people. =].(pst. the guys are pretty as well.)

my classmates from sa1 08/09. was during funorama. after the whole event. with our form tr mr chew.

yuanqing and i.
what shuxian and i did when we were suppose to do gp project.

well. aint a plate of watermelons great.

that's all i guess... till i get the pics.

church camp
before i start on it, shall tell you about my interesting church. my church is church of the good shepherd. for the past 49 years, there have been 2 congregations in the church as in really literally 2 congregations. namely the chinese congregation and english congregation. both congregations come at different times chinese in the morning, english in the afternoon. in other churches it would probably be called the morning service and afternoon service, however my church... doesnt. this year we have started the first combine congregation church camp with the theme together in unity. i would not say i totally enjoyed it. but it was a great experience to hang out with different people, knowing more little kids that dont like me or dont wanna talk to me or just want me to play with them, know more about the importance of unity, the concept of it, the function of it. as i said, i bunked with nat ng and rachel. well... i guess they are quite interesting. nat ng reads and reads -- jodi picoult's keeping faith. rachel writes and writes in her black krayle book. amazed at her neat handwrite. or at least it looked neat cause i saw black lines acrossed the pages. i somehow feel like starting a diary... think it will end up as a journal, maybe shall write for a friend, that would be more meaningful and make me more compelled to write. next up is warrior knights, interesting game. martin nat ng paul aaron and i formed the room service bunch... quite fun for starters i guess. dial room service. played munchkin fu and warrior knights with them. martin won most of the games... quite interesting. as usual, didnt sleep the last night. played warrior knights at 450. till about 6. my poor bro got locked out of his room by his roomies. after church camp, i think morning service would be more applicable to call what used to be the chinese congregation. camp was at batam's planet holiday. a pity i couldnt swim and didnt use the gym. on the third day, went bowling, quite alright scores. 68 and 91. i enjoyed lunch and dinner. got to mix with the other bunch of youths. kind of cool.

Thank God for church camp.

i'm suppose to blog ages ago.

my mind's a blank about what to blog.
shall start.
school holidays is hectic. but comparing to different people, there would be different opinions. i'm currently training for track season. three 3k runners, me shuxian and weilin. i cant stand the heat. it burns. i have a bad running posture, trying to change and i wonder if i should. allan+yihui were saying that sometimes it would change for the worst-- cant run well. according to shuxian, i'm a nerd runner. cause i ask too many questions about running. did 5x 800m 4:50 circle. meaning rest and run for each 800m is 4:50, run faster, rest longer. timings: 3:16, 3:27, 3:38, 3:42, 3:56. then rest for about 15 min and do 400m... timing: 80s.

wonder how come i'm running actually. everytime run long distance, some song will be playing in my head. today was running after you by planet shakers and take my hand by linking park i think.

church camp is coming. this camp is gonna be a little different from the past. i'm not bunking with fiona and joanna. cause they not going. bunking with different people. rachel and nat ng. gerald's not going (last min) =( jie and papa too. well... marcus has agreed to take care of my bro since i'm not in his group. many people not going this church camp. including elijah, jon, ben, kenneth. =( however, s4 are mostly going this year.

thank God for a great cross team
to pinky: hey dude... i updated again. now tell me your blog.

Few things:
-i'm enjoying my CCA -- CROSS COUNTRY. (we run run run run run run run run... okay you get the idea)
-i missed LIFE concert (sorry Shane)
-twinkle twinkle little star(the 12 variations one) is so fun to play.(reminds me of my childhood days... when there's no hw, just me and fun)
-no more wushu for me =(... mental training on the bus everyday.

CHurch
-alpha prg.
-church camp -- bunking with rachel,
-celeste might be coming along too =]
-sometimes i feel i cant really be a facilitator, had trouble trying to create conversation at the lunch table. maybe i'm just trying too hard, or maybe i'm just forgeting why i'm a facilitator, or just missing the purpose of serving God.

school.
-PI's done.
-failed mathematics, economics, chemistry, physics tests. the rest pass i think.
-more tests coming up. i should learn from nat, bring tb to study in lecture...
-i dont wanna be a teacher.

BADMINTON
-whee... cross made me have better stamina. either that or hansel really hang up his racket.
-felt the rush. when playing with hansel, can feel the wind. ( cause of my speed not the literal moving air.)
-should be training once a week if there's no race.
-hansel: please dont hang up your racket.
-hey crescent badminton, jiayous. well done for getting into nationals this year. remember, just do what you've been trained, leave the rest to God. =]
-cant wait for the next training. ongy remember to go run... we're gonna join cheers.
-hey remember we have a date in june... (start saving money)

Wushu
-sorry coach, i cant go wushu for a long while. shall hope to remain stagnant at the green belt level. shall train during june holidays, i guess. =]

Cross Country
-trainings are fun, i guess. requires longer and more mental to endure and perservere.( CB's moto: endurance and determination. but must + discipline)
-had nationals. took loads of pictures and feel very happy. hehe. got some pics a bit wrong... (eg. mark with no head, really sorry... didnt mean to)
-both teams did well, i guess... 4th place. think it's quite good though.
-went sakura to eat and grow fat... me too...just became fatter.
-i'm not on team. shall train hard.(go swimming.)
-more races coming up. =]. let's have fun.

1SA1
-this bunch of people, give me pressure... all of them do their homework...
-haha... but still fun bunch of people.

08s08(1)
-i met belinda at the bus-stop, cause she took the wrong bus and my training ended late.
-met pinky at ccab, (sorry my teammates bugged you for the shirt.thanks though.)he and his new wife -- the hockey stick. jiayou, get on team next year. shall go support if not against acjc.
-i met yew tong briefly... at CCAB.on cross nationals. he was gg home. (CCAB's the place to meet.)
-han cant wait for the next class gathering.
-i wish to go back to the sajc campus. saw pinky's emo picture.
-so therefore, mr mannan's right, we are a unique class, i'm sure we will meet again. let's go out in june. =] miss you guys loads...

to sharon: guess you'll probably never read this, but i really miss morning worship in sajc. wish i could go back for it every morning.

thank God for giving blessings and taking away pain.

ps: pinky with no brain,=Pp i updated.

*clears the cobs*
blog restored.
*updates*
now i'm in anglo-chinese junior college. the jc at dover. i'm feeling very neutral towards this institute. hmm... neither not crazy over it nor anti-acjc anymore. half of my teammates are there. but none crazy over badminton. i feel like joining cross-country. and for once understand what it means to work as a team by joining hockey. haiz.

march hols are over. had a great time. first was youth leader retreat. many stars at the campsite. experienced the prayer encounter. had teambuilding. i'm supposedly a 'dcsi' in disc test. (from mbti, i'm suppose to be an infp). went out with sajc class on wed. iceskated for hours. had fun with them. but i think i got 3 blueblacks from falling. on thurs went out with doubles partner ongy. xy locked herself in her house... somehow. eileen and cherlynn were like 2h late. me and ong had fun eating at sakae sushi. =] the waitress kept clearing our plates. kinda wanted to see how much we could eat. but ongy took pics. and cherlynn finally realises i'm vain...

still miss sajc... cool wind... daily morning worship... high ceiling in canteen... brother in same campus...og 11... 08s08...

Rule the world by Take That
You light the skies, up above me
A star, so bright, you blind me, yeah
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t fade away, don’t fade away-

Oh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world-
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world-

If walls break down, I will comfort you
If angels cry, oh I’ll be there for you
You've saved my soul
Don’t leave me now, don’t leave me now

Oh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me, we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world-

Ooooooooh

All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They’re lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you-

Ooooooooh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me, we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world

All the stars are coming out tonight (oooooooh)
They’re lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you-
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you,for you-

All the stars, are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you-
All the stars, are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you,for you-

heard it during the credits of stardust. me and nat stayed till the end of credits.

thank God for stars.

BLOG REVIVAL! hehe. after many months
let's start. O's were wonderfully disgusting. screwed up my physics, chemistry, amath and geog papers. that's like half of all my papers. but who cares. it over and done with. threw all my papers to the next batch of "O's survival players". Good Luck my dear juniors in crescent. start studying and dont stress out the poor teachers last minute like what we did. i miss TEAM CRESCENT badly. the crazy xy flying all over the place calling me names and being sacarstic (exclusively for me). natarie always telling me about her beloved zaizai or xiaozhu. miss enen. no one is energetic to go running with me... obviously i miss eunice ong. miss pouncing on her. monica and her character that never seems to amuse me. =]. of course and the many other psycho people in my dear crescent. (including waterbottle tan. mickeymouse tr. tiong. zilah and zlin. leowcp. tutukui. bullet train trs.)

my hols were spent as such.

after o's, had prom. enjoyed myself kind of. walked in heels for 7h to practise. practically trying to torture my poor feet. here's a picture of the three of us.

for the rest of november, i had training every night at jurong west sports hall. and it was subway for dinner and supper. hehe. eat fresh...here's pics of some of the teammates

my doubles partner. ongy. and me.

jasmine

hansel...

shenyang.

chen hong and meiyi.

eileen. like to bully me

had standard chartered run on the 2 dec. ran in approx 58min. very slow. 10km. after that was tournament period and training at night.next went to tibet to experience the cold. all pics still not with me. the photos always jam up my computer.

after that was ye camp. =]. it was experiencing God's prescence and love. theme of camp was know him more. realise nightwalk was a great way to know a person better. my nightwalk partner was natalie. a girl from nushigh. totally stranger. but by the end of it. got to know her better. hehe. we were the last of the last. last group basically to do the nightwalk. as usual bunked with joanna and fion. brought lots of food. had much dance practise too. but unlike the usual, the focus was to dance for God's glory. not to win syf or sth. quite fun practising spilts. camped in church on the last night. and the stars dont wanna shine. or the clouds were too thick. so sad. quite nice to sit alone to watch a night go by. sets the mood to think about things. camp was enjoyable on the whole. so sad it rained a little too much. and everyone was sick (i think it was because of me) by the end of it.

then was the performance day itself. there was a little prob for the last practice. due to costumes. but o well. we went to do a hunt for better costumes. some pics.

us.

martin and rachel. they taught the dance.
the secret to have smiles on dancers. sing the song you are dancing to. it worked for us.

spent christmas at aunty jenny's house. baked cookies in a small oven. they kept becoming burnt. met dorothy. as usual dressed in black. hehe. met theodoras. the young artist. draws quite well. he could even do blending.

next was the first badminton camp after year 2000. apparently, the tradition of badminton camp died sometime ago when ms goon was no longer the tr ic for shuttlers. hehe. it was quite fun. at least i thought it was. it was slack camp. not very tough. friendlys in the morn, trng in afternoon, and rankings at night. quite alright. =] the food was too much. but oh well. great camp.

see our team spirit? bet you do... (that sounds like xy with her slang)

the last thing for year 2007 is 2008 countdown. had bowling before gg to church. was quite cool. played arcade games and i owe fion money just remembered.i spent my last minutes of 2007 in church for watchnight service. it was about the theme of love. i was somehow quite tired. went to riverview hotel for nights stay. 1 room 13 ppl. can you imagine that.we sleep everywhere. i fell asleep first. very tired. had stuff on the next day so had to go sleep. played truth or dare, truth or truth. and i remembered someone say someone's gonna get hurt. oh well. quite crap. same kind of qn. nth much interesting.

Status: a saint.

currently, i'm in sajc. kind of enjoying myself and having fun. i've started playing basketball again. i think i'm crazy taking 5 sub. pcme and music. so smart. stress myself out for the first few months. i saw the track on the first day i went to sa. joy was felt, crescent doesnt have a running track. red track = pankhurst house. pankhurst the fighter, the warrior, the winner. yeah. okay that's besides the point.NE way, cross country just a while ago. want to thank God for strength and giving me two great pacers. a basketballer and a guy called andy from guitar club.(someone told me sth like that) first time running at east coast park for cross. quite a relaxing experience. my og group(og11) has a bunch of friendly people. played against og 13 after the event. wanted to crash jc but didnt. spent like a long time stoning around. should have brought poker cards. play bridge. had a great time with them though. i must say i enjoy going back to mission school. quite a peaceful environment.

og1108

anyways, found this on benjamin's blog. thought it was cool.

In Genesis the world was made,
In Exodus the march was told;
Leviticus contains the law,
In Numbers the tribes enrolled;
In Deuteronomy again
We're urged to keep God's law alone
And these five books of Moses make
The oldest writings ever known.
Brave Joshua to Canaan leads,
In Judges oft the Jews rebel;
We read of David's name in Ruth,
And first and second Samuel;
In first and second Kings we read
How bad the Hebrew state became;
In first and second Chronicles,
Another history of the same.
In Ezra captive Jews return,
While Nehemiah builds the wall;
Queen Esther saves her race from death.
These books "Historical" we call.
In Job we read of patient faith,
In Psalms are David's songs of praise;
The Proverbs are to make us wise;
Ecclesiastes next portrays
How vain fleeting earthly pleasures are;
The Song of Solomon is all
About the love of God, and these
Five books "Poetical" we call.
Isaiah tells of Christ to come,
While Jeremiah tells of woe,
And in his Lamentations mourms
The Holy City's overthrow.
Ezekiel speaks of mysteries,
While Daniel foretells kings of old;
Hosea calls men to repent;
In Joel judgement is foretold.
Amos tells of wrath, and Edom
Obadiah is sent to warn,
While Jonah shows how Christ should rise,
And Micah where He should be born;
In Nahum Nineveh is seen,
In Habakkuk, Chaldea's guilt;
In Zephaniah, Judah's sins,
Haggai, the temples's built.
Zechariah tells of Christ,
And Malachi of John, his signs.
The prophets number seventeen,
And all the books are thirty-nine.

thank God for the new year.

time for my monthly blog post.
i have to go on hiatus. maybe miss 1 or 2 monthly post.

this holiday is quite a special september holiday. there's an aim: prepare for the rest of the papers. however, there is no homework. This is what i feel learning at your own pace should feel. the homework makes things complicated. Went to Gary's birthday party. played basketball. better than my records for once i shot around 5 hoops within an hour. my last record was less than 1 hoop in an hour. i'm quite a bad player. gotta go try be better at it.

let's talk about this holiday. while ongy is skiving class to attend physics class, i have been an obedient student attending all extra lessons that are compulsory. Monday went to school. studied a little. nothing much i think i baked cookies. think. only think. Tuesday.went to study at westmall with wangjian. super cold. never study in coffeebean without a winter(emphasis winter) jacket and long pants. and they didnt have enough cds. we were there for like 4h. they played the same cd over and over again. like brainwashing. thanks Wangjian for studying with me. then had lunch at a nice place with my family. Wednesday did my work at home and stoned. and yup. Thursday this was the best day. had much laughter. after class, went with xy and nat to taka. bought lunchbox for congren and me from toriq. some really delicious smackeral that i didnt eat for a long long time. xy wanted me to go arcade. now. imagine: i sms congren: i'm late. when i meet him, with an ap face, i say sorry i went to arcade. i found it hilarious at that point of time. anyway. recording went well. retook a few times. i think he sang great. didnt get to do mixing though.i still wanna learn how to use cubase but o well i just have to do so another time. Thanks, Congren for singing and i'll try my best not to put the midi on the net.=] Friday that's today. had loads of fun. did mathematics in the morning. went to music class. with 8 cookies and 8 different kinds of tea. =]. for my teacher. to karl: hello dude. never seen you for quite some time. anyway. i would party in the rain if i have to. shall give you a waterbomb some day. i'll make sure you are in sch u. hehee. sorry for not replying your letter for like 2mths. =] drop you an email someday. =] then zach was convinced that i had a bf called gary because i'm attending his party... and zach has vowed that he wouldnt have a gf and zach's only 12. sounds like me. i still think i wont get a bf. definitely not one not gone through army. Gary's party was quite fun. as i mentioned i played basketball, skated, hang out with friends. oh, jo, fion and i took a pic that was made into the bgimage of fion's phone.

kind of cant wait to go back to school.
gtg
i wanna sleep.

Thank God for friends around me.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philipians 4:13

Something I learnt and makes me think. as what friends often remind me constantly. =]

I play Badminton because it is Christ who strengthens me. My legs can run and run non-stop because it is Christ who strengthens me. My engine can run on 5h of sleep per day(especially so recently) because it is Christ who strengthens me. Calmness is all around me during an examination because it is Christ who strengthens me. Setbacks and problems never caused insomia because it is Christ who strengthens me.

here's what happened between the posts:
i apparently went for two runs. 5.3 km milkrun and 10km mizuno run. i was top 20 for the 5.3km but the 10km run was a better timing. 5.3 km was 34/ 33 min. 10km was 58min. i've stopped all my trainings and am currently feeling unfit. anyone wants to go running with me? or we could play badminton. oh. i went to school training and Coach said that i'm rusty.

i had my english oral examinations today. the topic was one of my favourite. it was about sports, competition. talked quite a bit. i hope i did not bore the examiners. they looked quite pleasant to me. =] and i made the lady examiner smile. something hard to do. because she has mastered the art of keeping impressions and opinions undercover.

after like what seems like a decade of not running, i ran round the field twice during PE lesson. i should run more often. makes me feel happy due to endorphin release.

there was mass dance. quite fun. i hope i dont start liking dance all over again or history would repeat itself three times.

at the tender age of 7, i quit ballet. didnt want to be frisking around with a tutu (i think that is what it is called). at the age of 14, dance has caused me too much unhappiness. almost all the people do not like sports and i dont have photographic memory. i dont wish to pick it up a third time and end up giving it up again. so i took wushu. mr tan called it dancing. so well. maybe it is. learning wushu makes dancing easier. but wushu seems more organized than dancing. we had fun for mass dance. that's about it.

Thank God for examinations.

i'm blogging. contrary to my usual monthly post, june shall have 2 posts.

HOLIDAY REPORT
i've completed all chem homework.
i've not completed mathematics, add mathematics and geography homework.
i've not completed studying social studies.
i've not completed studying geography
i've not completed studying hadyn's london symphony.
i've not completed practicing my piano.

anything left unsaid has been left untouched.

this second half of 2007 is gonna be a real interesting second half.
it is gonna start with youth day where i'm gonna run 5km. (i've never ran that far before)
followed by training for doubles sth i nvr thought of doing. it's both girls doubles and mixed doubles. according to events calender on sba's website. the doubles matches is held on 3 dec to 8 dec. which means. i have around 19 days to train. prom night on 15nov at hilton. what else is there. oh yea. it's hard to miss a crazy 3wks long of exams that starts soon. i'm having o's.
that's about it. oh yea. my doubles partner is ongy for girls. my bro doesnt want to be my md partner.

that's it.

Chinese 'O' written papers are over. i feel elated, joyful, bouncy. yippee. went to expo that day for fun. ongy was saying原来考完试的感觉是这样的ong, brend, nat and i came up with a riddle. 什么东西是圆的？答案：薛‘圆’ then i sent sms to xy. but xy didnt have a sense of humour. oh well. this week is gonna be a hectic week.



Monday: 'O' levels. Fiona and Mark could not sleep. i smsed Fiona, Mark and Gary at 1130. Mark replied immediately and still dont want to use chinese to sms. Fiona reply around 1140. Gary nvr reply. i couldnt sleep the night before till about 1. xinyi slept at 3. haiz. was quite a fun paper. lala.



Tuesday: Had school till about 1230? went to eat pizza with grandma bro sis and dad. the pizzahut service was real slow that day. had to keep requesting for the food. and appetizers came after the pizzas did. so weird. anyway...



Wednesday: i slept during geog lesson. i'm sure ms lee was staring at me cause i was like sitting up straight with my eyes closed. i tried to keep awake but alas, physical geog is so unappealing to me. this is by far the most hectic day yet. it was lessons till 3. rush home to slack for 1h, and rush out again to go for the music thingy. the few of us wandered around the area looking for food while rachel fussed about her hair getting smelly and in the end we ended up at tiong bahru eating KFC. reached church at 11pm. stayed overnight. Jiamin, Yi Le, Yu Lei (mojojojo's friends) came for this event. (seriously jonana. you should have asked gary or elijah to come instead of me...)



Thursday: slept 4am and woke up at 8am. felt like some zoombie for a while. and i decided that in future, i'll not sleep on chairs. i'll lean against the wall to sleep. had breakfast and went to catch potc3. quite a great day. except for the lack of sleep. (pst i baked cookies)



Friday: what today would be... physics till 1000, then sleep till 1. then practise piano till dun wanna practise. then if got time play dough and (i'll bake). then BADMINTON. wahaha. i'm an evil friend. cherlyn is scared of Coach's car. chen yi would have like a lot of trng hrs today. close to 7. haha. i'm kind of sure Coach would give her a lift if she would accept it. haiz.



YE retreat is coming. yippee. hope i get to bunk with jonana. (friday 1am)

let's talk about CHEERS SINGLES AGE GROUP TOURNAMENT. once again like what i did to shiwei from nhss, i found jiayan from dhs. out of the many jiayans. feels a sense of satisfaction. i'm gonna train hard. next year playing in WS not GU17. (why must i be born so early) when i told cheryln that my opponent is jiayan. cheryln was like, "jiayi's good friend" ironically, this jiayan has a friend called jiayi. i've read her blog. she reminds me of my previous blog. half the time blogging about my sports life. shall i start? no i shant. i would like to make friends with jiayan. haha. seems normal enough.=]. zafey's kind of normal.

i'm kind of excited to play for tourni. yipee. if i have time i would go support cheryln. i needa train. desperately. coach couldnt conduct (hey alliteration) trng today (alliteration again=] )cause he going for some dinner. me and ongy went to buy shuttles to go train. was wondering what to buy. we so blur. then we went to csh. coach lee was there training my bro. haha. no courts from 8 -9. so me and ong played under nature's mercy. no wind. how great is that. :) then we remember we were suppose to go to the gym to do pt. we almost died doing launches(however you spell it) we only use 4kg half dead le. coach wanted us to use 5kg EACH HAND. eunice was really tired after that. could barely move her leggys. (she didnt touch racket for 2 wks. poor racket... so unloved.) i need to push myself more. i'll go to the gym soon. should call crazy ppl who love to do pt to come with me. maybe call natalie or jie en. lala. after that ong and i still trained for 1h. was kind of a slack trng esp when you can barely feel your leggys.

gtg. need my sleep for the long day tmr.

Thank God for Great Friends. =]

let white be the color

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt,
Who am I?
That the Bright and Morning Star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am,
But because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean (ocean),
A vapor in the wind,
Still You hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling,
And You've told me who I am…
I am Yours…I am Yours

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin,
Would look on me with love,
And watch me rise again,
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am,
But because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean (ocean),
A vapor in the wind,
Still You hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling,
And You've told me who I am...
I am Yours

Not because of who I am,
But because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean (ocean),
A vapor in the wind,
Still You hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling,
And You've told me who I am...
I am Yours

I am Yours…I am Yours

Whom shall I fear?...Whom shall I fear?

'Cause I am Yours…I am Yours

duno why, but was thinking of this song on the bus home. so i blogged it.

i've changed seats in class. no offense. but it is much better i think. i think the people around me are influential. eg.jiaying on my right, she has super neat handwrite. it looks like it came out from the computer. i dont even want to look at her content. feels very pressured to write neat too. beside me is jie en. i look at jie en and she is always very serious in her work. or well. at least from what i see. then she is also a christian. i've not seen her in any negative light before. well... she's influential too. half the time see her holding a pen or reading( when the teacher is being too lengthy) beside jie en, is my dear friend natarie. nat also half the time so smart, makes me feel pressured. nat also reading half the time. now diagonally right in front of me is michelle. the smart dude. know her since primary school. she's quite cute (without the ugly part please), and also very serious in class. back to my point, these people make me feel pressured to study and study and do my work. dont ask why. but it's great. i've been up to date with my maths and physics at least. chemistry a little less slack and oh well. i think it's a great thing to have a change. the previous area doesnt have that effect on me. oh well. but i do miss been whacked by my partners who would watch if i'm asleep or about to fall asleep or asleep with my eyes open. and also asking eunice to kick rachel's chair. okay end of story.


had learning festival yesterday. had fun. was a seamstress. however you spell it. show you．

suppose to sew the can can for the gown. oh well. it was a fun experience. but it kinda was like last minute for the gown. oh yea. the person in the first photo wearing the gown is michelle. cute right. she's a very sociable, friendly and smart person. oh yeah. and i got my class jersey. and i'm special. cause mine's the only one that is in chinese. my nickname is dash away (translate yourself). went for a songwriting/ singing course. the instructors were funny and hilarious... probably because we were quite dead so they were trying to spice things up. but it was quite basic stuff that they taught. (of course.it's only a 2h workshop.)had fun though.

had trng. the last trng at coach lee for now. beat xavier 13-11. and also lost to him the first match 21- 18. almost beat uncle poon and aunty jen. me and martin. 22- 20 and lost to them in another set also 21- 17 i think. these were the main games. the rest cannot remember. i think the best game i ever played is this mixed doubles and the mixed doubles with shaunald against jamie and nicholas. we lost 3 out f 4 matches. i was the worst one. couldnt net and couldnt flip and couldnt defend. but these were great matches.

anywayz. o level's coming. i'll blog in probably two months time.

thank God for coming down to earth and creating the way.

i feel like changing my blog template. should change it a long long time ago though.
been a long long long time since i blogged. in a blink of an eye, my next tournament and last tournament representing crescent is two days away. i think i'm gonna write some stuff to be kept in my head. i duno how to tell that we dont want to be training alone, we want to be under him as in as his athlete and that we want to pay him. duno how to tell him that. anywayz... that's for later to think about.

let me talk about my piano exam. for this exam, i've been practising my piano for like at least 1.5 h a day since sch exams ended. the last night before the exam, i practised for two hours. nearly died. i feel that i play much better though. this time, i got a male examiner. my scales were alright, the pieces were alright but a bit of slips. the sight reading was fun. the aurals were i'm not sure how to say. but dont think it was very good. well, i'm quite happy with it.

oh yeah. cross country is over, i came in third and lost to louisa and shuxian again. oh well. they are natural runners. they can fly. louisa is like a wind. shuxian is like the waves. just keep running.

let me think what other stuff that has been left out... oh. happy cny... i didnt gain much though i ate much. my grades for the common test were quite okay. just that i failed my ss and chinese. feels so sad that i failed my chinese. chinese... i dont get it. the school make us sit for the exam but dont count the mark. not fair. i did well for paper 1 would have passed if it was counted. did well for maths. badly for both sciences and languages. and for once in my life, i got a b for geography. i think i took the wrong combi. should have had combine geog and ss and pure lit. oh well. at least i learn about the climate with my combination. in my report, there's 2 a1 1 b3, and like 3 c6 and 2 d7. must go find the sock puller.

tmr got training. playing badminton for 3h then go for wushu 2h. a bit nuts. but oh well. i will survive. hope i can get a game with the gro guy. i want to restring my racket to tension 24, and get a new pair of badminton shoes. mine's like falling apart. and i'm gonna wear it for the tournament. will be playing against this vjc girl or the ahs girl. likely to be vjc girl. i played with her doubles partner in cheers last year.

church today. hmm.... i recorded the worship. the whole thing is on my mp3. will go edit it later. gtg and do my chinese comprehension. need to hand up tmr.

thank you Lord for bringing me through my exams and giving me a peaceful mind when i sat for my piano exam.

it's gonna be a hectic week.

tmr's my last tournament representing team crescent. i think. unless march one is counted
i've been thinking about the tournament. i think i performed very very badly in the cgss match.
i never bring my brain and legs in. i really duno how to write the thing to Coach. cannot remember anything. only remember that i hit the shuttle into the net. i think i will be the second singles. somehow seems more warmed up than first singles. maybe i'm just being a bit crazy. i played second singles twice and i won both matches. played first singles twice and lost both matches. i pray that that is a coincidence.

i dont want to eat rojak anymore. today ate rojak with chilli. so spicy and i dont like the thrill of tasting such extreme heat in my ears. the only thing i eat that is spicy is laksa and curry. (because my brother learnt how to eat such spicy food. i cant be the blacksheep)

i dislike the new rules in place. why cant we go out of school for lunch? dont get the 5 tick 1 demerit. it's dumb. dont like the system. but i'm very sure that after a week or two the tension of upholding such rules dies off and will revert back to the usually style. i've often feel that school rules are made for the fun of it for a show. and obeyed only when visitors appear. dont want to talk about school anymore. just more and more hw. what a year.
i didnt blog for a long time because... i'm lazy.

piano exams coming
my last cross country is coming.
my last pre zonal match
my last tournament representing crescent
my last wushu class before o levels.

i want to play badminton. (if that would make my grades improve)

thank GOD for bringing me through the times when i'm down. through the times when i thought there is too much test to cope. through times when the marks said i've failed. through the times of my games.

"Be joyful always" 1 thess. 5:16

max and i made potato salad.

did our hw while the potato was being steamed and while the eggs were boiled.

thanks ongy for the inspiration. was super yummy. it looked much more colourful than ongy's potato salad. yumyum.

this is the super salad done by max and i and ernatin. of course God made the ingredients. i'm hungry again.bro didnt believe that the salad could be eaten cold.

the mouse is in the house.... it's the only show where you're invited to spot the special fiesta. dont we always get our mouse... bring in the rings. cant you see the hidden mickey. not so hidden. =) a bit lame.

first it was brownies. i bet he would make potato salad next time. think i influenced him. lalala. i wanna eat cheese cake.i feel like a pig. oink oink. tournament is coming. let's see the team shirt. i only took the front. i look like some motorcycle racer or sth. this is the grey white one. i didnt try the black one. it looks normal though.

jersey's nice right. if not nice. i'll cry. pay so much money. lala. anyway. still feel that it is a little mean to make the jnrs pay so much. this jersey reminds me of that time i saw this guy wear a jersey similar to this. just that is green and white. more white than green. then it said team raffles. ours say team crescent. anyway. nice jerseys. hope i can wear this shirt for a long time.

okay. gtg.

i'm eating gummys. yumyum.
i just heard this song somewhere. here's the lyrics.

Crash and Burn

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned it's back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relieve and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door
And you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face they day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

i've found the scores for this song. it's got the chords too. i think. and the recent song that i listened to during the bored times of CCIS. oh yeah. on the last week of hols i had a great time.

23rd december

smsed some ppl what they would like for christmas.

fion: anything gurl( gave her a cookie shaped like a girl but was a bit fat)

joanna: didnt reply within press time.

gary:didnt reply within press time

elijah: snow

mark: nothing actually but chocoates would be great.( didnt turn up so nvr got his cookie choc)

jon: just attend christmas party.

martin: he read the bible so was deeply inspired. no idea how to phrase what he asked for.

there were many ppl who didnt reply within press time. many ppl baked cookies too. baked till the next day. quite fun.

24th december

went to fiona's house. played a load of games. had fun. counted down to christmas. the christmas poppers were a joke. my brother thought it would be gunshot loud but it wasnt. then enyao happily smsed the few of us merry christmas. and we who didnt know who he was, called him back ( more of i called him back) then we all who were at fiona's house returned his greetings.

oh yeah. thanks for the many presents. a bit late but still thanks.

25th december

had fun. went to ccis. my bro, me and my jie. we were in the middle of the road. so cool right. we were standing in the middle of orchard road.stole this from benjamin. we were in the middle of the road. quite fun. there's another pic.

see the beautiful road. so fun right. after the barricades were up, went for some really late lunch. then went to find my sister and shirley. never found them. anyway. my sis had the tiring job, while mine was relaxed. i was telling my sister rubbish. told her i was buying her g-strings. actually went to buy bubble tea. yumyum. i'm hungry now. oh ya. and i havent finished unwrapping my presents yet. (meaning that day) after slacking and getting dinner. more of clara was eating. i was like stoning and holding gerald's diluted milktea. after we were done, i was placed on guard to guard this little loophole entrance in the system. was really bored. sitting on the drain. benjamin also guarded till he was bored and keep walking around. oh yeah and i feel guilty draining his handphone batt. cause listen to music. first started with mighty to save until duno what song. haiz. watched a row of choir's butt. i was at the backstage. can only see ppl's butt. was fun. had and overnight stay at church. ey had to wake up early to go to his time trial which was canceled.

26th december

had breakfast with shirley. really late breakfast then went for trng. think it was the match with pioneer or was it. cant remember. had trng. thanks to the people who waited for me while i took a bathe. cant imagine if i stepped out the toilet in that demin blue dress. i think eunice will faint. cause i dont look like that. then went to christmas party in the not appropriate attire. back at church. didnt have time to dress up but anywayz. was fun. got food. i was hungry. after trng. anything is good. i'll eat anything. when you are hungry, you apprieciate the food.

29th december

went to church dinner. skipped wushu. had fun. fiona, joanna asked me to buy some slippers. didnt have heels. jie didnt want to lend me hers. anywayz. here's a pic of us.

joanna, me, fiona, vanessa, and my sister.

there's the three of us. i only have one dress sorry. anyways, we had fun. sat with same ppl as we sat the previous year.

31st december

went to gerald's house after church. ey, joanna, nat and i went to climb 25 storeys. enyao real fit. joanna next then. is me and nat. the slowys. haha. very fun. saw this really cute rabbit. white colour de. gerald's house had two dogs damn cute. we had sharing. more of only gerald shared. then we played the normal stuff. then suddenly, gerald was telling us about bombings in thailand where the snr team was. they were just two stations away from the site. if i'm not wrong. so started to pray. they are safe le. then had fun till new year. i dread it yet look forward to it.

1st january 2007

saw double rainbow. so cool right.

end of post.

the first post of the year.

my bdae yesterday. thanks xy and eunice for tolerating my cranky mood that morning. xy surprised me with something green. as i was looking at it upside down, i had no idea what it was. so i said what's this? she gave me a really cute alligator. thanks a million pal. eunice on the other hand was wondering whether my cranky mood morning would be the perfect time to give me my present. so she was contemplating much. anyway. she gave me a very sweet looking box. when i opened it. i thought it was a box of stars and shampoo. but at a second look, i realise she gave me a new earpiece. thanks a million pal. and the funniest thing is i'm sandwiched between both of them in class.

i received a few surprises yesterday. first suat hoon jie, shake my hand say happy bdae. then started singing loudly in the hall a bdae song. super funny. then later at the first trng of year 2007, i was about to ask eunice why she didnt hitch a ride from nat as it was raining, then the whole team gave me a surprise singing me bdae song.then at night. while i was trying to get auntie tina's no. my dad kept calling me to come downstairs. then because of his tone of voice, i thought he want to scold ppl.then obviously is my stupidity. cause it's my bdae. so got bdae cake =].

me and my cake. i was quite bored with taking pics.

to the ppl who smsed me. be it in the early morning, when i'm having class, after school or at night, thanks for remembering my birthday. someone even sang me a birthday song through an sms. post more tmr. want to sleep le